BTW, judges allowed, virtually encouraged, my abuser to lie under oath so much that, despite me being a passionate cook since my teen age and when married, and coking large buffets for his visiting friends, and for his lovely parents, even with a very young baby, with a 2-week old newborn after a C-section and later, lied in court pretending he was crying and using a tissue for his non-existent tears "recounting" how I could not make a basic meal and fed my toddler only MacDonald's (not once back then), and tons more. TOTAL FICTION! It was one of the most disturbing things in my life I never knew existed. It was so serious that His Dishonour Tyrer the Tyrant, a shameless impostor of a judge, was starting proceedings to get the social services involved and potentially to have all my parental rights annulled.
I am still traumatised by it, yet, when a barrister managed to persuade him that it was all the opposite of the truth, he just cowardly ignored the whole thing as if it had never happened, never reprimanded my abuser in the slightest, let alone punished him for perjury and defamation, something we are meant to be protect from by the law, yet many judges seem to indulge in, directly or by proxy. That is how those "courts" operate - on bias, injustice, almost certain corruption and criminality.
My plan of having a food channel, and a lot more with food, 25 years ago when I got married has been impossible to materialise given the very limiting and taxing circumstances I've lived in ever since and not having a fraction of the facilities or finances needed to even start, hardly any space even for my kind of domestic cooking, but I have still continued what I did when married, somehow, for my children despite the constraints.
I have also placed a few videos online for my children to have at university instead of them asking me for recipes all the time, and for a few friends I exchange recipes with. So, it is not a channel, maybe not yet, or maybe it is simply too late. And I've lost about 40 longest videos so far when my phone died, due to my inadequate IT skills at the start etc, so I am not sure I am for anything more than just a page for those closest to me. I am very demoralised, and maybe not good enough at cooking, or much else too.
The crux of the matter is, while far from perfect, is this, as shown on my Youtube page, the grounds for courts to get the social services involved and a baby taken away from his mother, or rather for cash behind the scenes when nothing else matters? Also, while not perfect, how could my ex-husband get all my effort and love, even when I was pregnant in between constant travels and sadistically abuse me as much as he did, and then a long list of them in FAMILY, not a brothel, court while never being accountable for their actions? The mother of his child? And that is the kind of people those sham courts protect and encourage to keep on cheating, lying, remarrying, changing lovers like socks, producing endless sets of children and leaving a bloodbath behind them, while family-orientated, grounded women and men of values, decency and sound mind are too scared to settle down and have children, or at least the way they would love to.
For me, family, one's spouse and children, is sacrosanct, by far the biggest decision we ever make, and I recoil from the pits we have been reduced to by the worst of human beings who do not have the capacity to comprehend that.
It is travesty of justice. It is abuse of rudimentary human/children's rights.

